this list is not in any specific order, just a big list of things i'd like to do during my withdrawal:
☆ become fluent in spanish
why? i'm puerto rican and have always lived with spanish speakers, but i myself never got farther than understanding
a decent amount of spanish. i can understand most spanish, but i can't speak it well, my accent sucks, and i have no grammar skills.
after losing my grandma a couple years ago, i realize that me not knowing spanish meant that i never got to hear her life story, or
really get to know her as a person.
☆ develop a work out routine
why? i've been steadily gaining weight since i started my anti-depressants in 2022, and it's time for me to move my body again so
i can feel healthy. it's not only for my looks, but also my chronic illnesses could benefit from more healthy activity in my life.
if we're talking numbers, i'd like to go from my current 190lbs to 160lbs, which is the weight i was before i started my meds.
☆ learn to machine sew
why? ever since i started cosplaying in 2012, i've always wanted to learn to machine sew. for some reason, i could never get it to work
properly lmao. i can hand sew fine, which is fine for doll clothes, but if i wanna make my own stuff for fun, machine is the way to go.
this isn't a suuuuper big goal, but it'd be cool if i could get to it!
☆ find a second source of income
why? money, lmao. pokemon collecting is an expensive hobby and i live in an expensive state. plus, like i said, i'm moving across the
country in 2 years so i need to save money. i'd love to find a barista, garden or plant nursery worker, or something at-home. maybe make
some easy digital products i can sell, idk. i really don't want to get a 2nd job thats gonna stress me out, since the whole point of this
medical withdrawal is to get my health back in control and stress easily affects my illnesses.
☆ learn to decorate cakes better
why? i loooove to bake, but i'm not the greatest at decorating cakes. i wanna get better at it! but the other issue is that i cannot be eating
all that cake, lmao. ;-;
☆ embrace femininity and my body
why? i've always felt that my body wasn't feminine enough to be a cute pink girly, even if i wanted to. i've always worn black, alternative and gothic
clothing which i looove but i really want to be able to wear a cute pink skirt, stockings, etc. i've started to build my closet a bit and i feel like
the pretty princess i never allowed myself to be!
☆ learn more sophisticated coding
why? i mean, i feel like anyone reading this can relate to this. i've definitely learned a lot of htmlcss these past few months, but i'd like to be better
at optimizing my codes and actually being able to make the things i see in my head. right now, my site is OKAY but i have so many more complex ideas that
i just don't know how to accomplish.
☆ improve health
why? i have a lot of chronic illness and mental illness that have been affecting me so deeply the last 3-5 years. i'm in a constant state of discomfort and
it's really hard to feel like a person most days. even as i type this, i'm scratching wildly and trying not to panic about how bad my allergies are. my biggest
goal for the next 2 years is to get my health on check, develop stable coping techniques for my ADHD, and get better sleep(my average sleep is 4 hrs/day).
☆ write
why? i used to love roleplaying and writing stories. i haven't done it in so long, and i don't have any motives of writing a book or anything but i'd like to just
be able to write little short stories for myself, even if they never see the light of day.
☆ continue my plant studies
why? even though i'm not in school, i want to keep my brain sharp and working so that it isn't as hard of a transition when i go back to school again. this one is going
to take some willpower, because it's hard in general to get my brain to focus on difficult stuff when it's not for a grade. but this is the perfect time for me to build
the big book of knowledge i've always wanted to do. part of me wants to do them online, so i can share the resources with others here, but i also want it in person. maybe
i'll opt to doing it in word and printing it out into a binder as i go. we'll see!
continue my plant studies
1. figure out what platform to use
--- microsoft word, notions.... leaning towards word
2. read & take notes of botany book entirely
3. start up garden again
--- gotta remoisturize and fertilize the soil
--- pull weeds
--- set up shade cloth
--- plant: tomatoes, bell peppers, okra, bok choy, cilantro, thai basil
--- take notes of plants i tend to
4. try herbarium studies, archiving, preserving, etc.
--- gotta look into this more, idk how to accomplish this.
5. watch crash course botany.
--- just for fun tbh, i watched a couple episodes but never finished it.
become fluent in spanish
1. go through pronounciation pages in workbook
2. look for a video series or affordable online class